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12:03 am
[Link] | I'm not posting here anymore. If you are interested: http://shellular.blogspot.com/
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01:11 am
[Link] | I miss falling asleep peacfully and quietly. Every now and then I get a night void of conversation and giggles and those are the nights I sleep soundly.
C'est Lavi
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08:51 pm
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Must one be a whore?
New thoughts on love/relationships/life.
Forward women with no reserve and, seemingly, no moral standards always get what they want when they want it.
I keep seeing girls getting guys left and right and can't help comparing myself to them. The fact that I am not entrely comfortable with the concept of the "random hookup" seems to greatly hinder my romantic life. I see great guys: ones I would consider smart and capable, going after any girl as long as she makes it easy.
Do I need to be more of a whore? Or are guys just that disgustingly desperate. Does it not matter at all to a guy the quality of the girl he has sex with? Am i stupid for not being more flirtatious and loose in my ways?
I know all the answers to thses questions. I only ask them because I am officially tired of seeing so many whores getting more interest than me. Why is that appealing, on either side?
On occasion I wish I was more shallow.
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02:59 pm
[Link] | It turns out Stackhouse reads my Xanga. That makes me feel terrible, as I have said things there I don't necessarily mean and/or they can come across wrong. Also, no one else that reads that thing has ever really had anything nice to say about him - except maybe Lauren.
I feel bad for the kid. Mainly because I am my mother - as much as I dont want to be. He was talking to me, telling me his problems, saying he felt lost and confused and I just watned to fix it. And honestly, I could fix it but that isnt something I should do and Im not sure if its something I want to do.
What makes me feel the worst is that I am happy.
It's true. I am generally happy with my life and where I stand in it. Weird, I know.
I want him to be happy too, but Im not going to sacrafice myself for it. We'll see how all this pans out - it should be interesting.
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10:25 am
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I got this nagging feeling that won't leave me alone.
Ever feel like you are doing everything wrong? Yeah. I dont know whats wrong with me but I need to buck up (cowboy the fuck up, if you will).
I'm getting sort of bored of being unhappy.
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10:40 am
[Link] | I just had a vivid flashback to a dream I dreamed last night but had already forgotten. It's disturbing, and it seems so real.
I dont like when my dreams get confused with memories.
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02:41 pm
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I want to inflict physical pain on someone.
In what reality can your professor look you in the eyes and say "it is clear from your test that you completely understand the concepts but you are still wrong".
In my reality, which sucks by the way.
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04:13 pm
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Today was awesome!
Today I did poorly on a test that I was told repeatedly woudl be "no big deal" by the teacher!
I bought shoes that squeak and I LOVE squeaky shoes!
I stepped in come in said new shoes!
I found out that I am $120 overdrawn in my checking account!
I have a rather difficult test tomorrow that I am not prepared for!
Today wan fanatsic! And also seeping with sarcasm.
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12:52 pm
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I have a test everyday this week.
Hanging out with the Brand*ns makes me feel rather stupid sometimes.
I took an IQ test this morning, just one of those silly "accurate" online ones. I took it half for the entertainment of it and half for the result. I guess I'm pleased? I have only a few people to compare it to and, unfortunately, those people happen to be far too smart. Apparently I am "well above average" of the general population, but in comparison to my friends I am more accurately defined as "below avaerage"
Maybe I'll go take a real one sometime. Or, more likely, tomorrow I won't really care anymore.
But, seriously, I associate only with incredibly intelligent people. Damn.
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11:55 pm
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Think happy thoughts... then say them outloud
This is more a post for Lauren since she commented that she often checks my sad/angry venting space that is live journal. For you, I leave these happy little thoughts.
I have been incredibly busy lately with Zeta, Broccoli, and Class (my advertising class in particular is constant projects) but despite all of this I am really genuinely happy. The level of stress I have is just the right amount to keep me motivated and engaged while not being overwhelming or depressing. I think I may actually be good at advertising, something I didn't necessarily believe before, and this makes me incredibly excited about the next year and a half of classes/rest of my life.
Things are just good, and I do not ever take the time to express that. Venting may be good for the mind, but relishing is good for the heart.
My mom understands that when I don't call her that I am fine. She knows she will hear from me when I am upset or have a problem; it's the same with these online journal things. If you don't get a post from me in a while I must be doing just fine (or dead in a ditch... check on me from time to time won't you?)
In short, I am happy with life. Life is good.
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01:59 am
[Link] | My GPA has dropped below 3.5. It's never done that before, ever. Now, I like to think that I am not that wrapped up in and/or anal about my academic performance, but this really bothers me.
Some people would say its strange to consider a B average failure. When did Bs become so bad?
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12:32 pm
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I got no plans and too much time
I don't actually have much of anything to say, but I heard that lyric and wanted to use it. I find it very fitting for me in general.
- oatmeal isnt good or filling. Based on these two facts, it shouldnt exist.
+ Who snuggled all last night?? Yeah, that was me.
+ Vinny's "Good Itallian for for Cheap" might be the greatest discovery in months.
- People on bikes stare at you funny when they ride by. They don't realize they arent in a car with tinted windows and cant get away with it.
- I worry way way too much.
+ In the end, I usually have nothing to worry about.
+ John and Stacks call me on my shit, and I apprecieate that a lot.
+ I'm going to Florida on Sunday.
+ I get to snuggle all night tonight and all day tomorrow.
Who wants to go to the circus?
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10:22 am
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Holla, bitches.
I feel so very good right now. Happy. All sorts of happy.
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08:05 pm
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I'm pouting.
It's a Motherfucker
Being here without you
thinking 'bout the good times
thinkin 'bout the bad
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It's a Motherfucker
How much I understand
The feeling that you need someone
To take you by the hand
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09:39 pm
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Best Commercial on TV
PowerBar Triple Threat.
Commercial: A large black man being chased by random people on the street and finally tackled by a small asian convienet store owner.
Slogan: One bite, and you'll feel like you can take on anything.
offensive much?
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01:27 am
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I do everything John does, but better! =)
1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal, please.
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11:11 pm
[Link] | I really like my boyfriend.
that is all.
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08:41 pm
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I really dont want to study: I'm a post whore.
the Wit
(69% dark, 30% spontaneous, 16% vulgar)
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your humor style:
CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK
You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're
probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean you're
pretentious. You realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that the
Simpsons' philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor
and most other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat.
I
guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the
perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer. Your sense of humor
takes the most effort to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my
opinion.
Also, you probably loved the Office. If you don't know what I'm
talking about, check it out here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/theoffice/.
PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais
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My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 99% on dark | | You scored higher than 99% on spontaneous | | You scored higher than 99% on vulgar |
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06:21 pm
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Living alone is awesome
I was slightly amused with myself when my doorbell rang unexpectedly and I had to rush to throw clothes on in order to answer it. After a brief annoyance from some environmental workers, I realized it was actually strange to have clothes on; it felt wrong.
That's right. I live alone and spend 80% of my average day naked (or close enough to it that the label still applies). Maybe if I had airconditioning it would be a different story, but somehow I doubt it.
I will have to get out of the habit before Brandan gets back...
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04:16 pm
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I like him.
When I went to the doctor yesterday they weighed me and measured my height. I've put on 8 pounds and grown 3/4".
For those of you keeping track, I am now 156 pounds and 6' flat.
Does that mean you're allowed to date me now?
Brandon "6 footer" Stackhouse
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